CUIYI'S

surprise surprise

and so to the person that left a bag of kinder products at my doorstep. thank you. it was really nice to open the door to a bag of surprise and i am eternally grateful beause i thought no one would want to do such a thing for me anymore.

i know i have been paranoid, because this means you know where i stay and thats really scary. but i guess you mean no harm and i sincerely thank you for brightening up my day. promise i wont wish for LV the next time round. (:

the infinite waitlist

i get it. things dont just go away or become better when you shelf them in a corner. everyday you revisit the same issues feeling differently but you dont get it, and theres no solution. its difficult because the rational self finds that taking the leap of faith mortifying. the irrational is no longer confident in itself.

its the fleeting moment. the moment where everything youve wanted and feared for happening all at once. the emotions run  too deep and you dont understand it. first you say hang on, i need time to comprehend what just happened. stalling, thats instinctive. then when that excuse runs dry, you say idk a whole lot. amazingly, i apologise a whole lot too at this stage. i cant translate my predicament into anything proper right now and my thoughts dont go far. it usually ends with an idk. this is where i freeze time in some parts of my life.

yes, i am very erratic right now.

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its a happy friday today. first i made myself happy by getting the happiest thing ever. kinder products, specfically the kinder surprise. kinder surprise and a whole lot of caffine is essential when you have a full school day on friday. so yes, i downed two eggs during the last lesson. but the day got better. zhisheng and jo suggested dinner so we ended up at peperoni pizza. srsly, comfort food at the end of the week sounds so flyyyyyyyyyyyyy. life’s great on a friday.

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California king bed

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to plam

We were always just that close.

I got up from my nap earlier feeling tragic.